The Good, The Bad and The Ugly

I try to pride myself on being a strong, confident woman but often I get tested - as we all do - and feel apart from my natural person.

In becoming a teacher there are dues to pay, some pass through easy, others have it more difficult. My own journey, although so far short, has only been tested by personal hurdles - a long 6 month battle with a terrible disease, that I inevitable won. (athankyou). Now, the waiting I have been doing is on the cusp of being squashed - a tentative job offer for one semester. A due to be paid - not a full year, just half.

This position has it's pro's and cons and one large, loaded statement of "Jackie the issue is that this position's schedule has one math course"

Living most my life as a storybook, movie or pop culture reference I immediately hear the music from the graveyard duel in "The Good, The Bad and The Ugly" - which if you haven't seen please click here for better reference and go to the 1.42 mark for the best part.

All I could utter was a meek "oh"

Math. My old, but faithful arch enemy. My biggest weakness. The largest hurdle I have yet to beat.

I humbly admitted my weakness and my trepidations with teaching the subject but also stated my unwillingness to let this opportunity pass. I then asked for some time, just half an hour to go through my resources in order to make a better decision. As soon as I put down the phone, I broke down crying and it must have been fate that Dave was working from home to not only console me but to put everything into perspective. After a quick consultation with a friend who teaches math I felt like I was putting together my own Ocean's 11. I had my team ready to help.

I put the call in, stated with pride that I could handle it, I have the resources, I have the dedication and effort to put forth a great course.

The end of the phone call, however, did not end with a congratulations but rather a "we will call you back later on today with the final outcome."

What? So no job? I got worked up to just wait some more.

So here I am, waiting, but hopefully not for long.